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  • 7th March
    2011
  • 07

Getting Real for a second

I blog as a means to vent my way through this crazy journey, my attempt to find my inner skinny bitch. I know she’s in there somewhere I have conversations with her at least a few times a month. Mostly on those days when I have to step on the scale and my response is either one or two things.

“Yo there you are, it’s about freaking time already” slap myself on the back, give my self a little smile in the mirror and go on with my day.

or

“What the hell! Enough already whats taking you so freaking long get with the freaking program already! God!” Flick off the scale and avoid eye contact in the mirror and walk away feeling defeated.

It’s a freaking roller coaster.

Where I am at today….

Frustrated with tumblr because on some days it feels like I’m back in freaking jr high where the cool (fit at the moment) kids look at you like whats your freaking problem and you walk around with a big loser sign on your head, then I realize that for some they are having their “Moment” you know when you first lose all that weight and people look at you different and you suddenly think your someone else have all the answers and look down at the rest of the little people who are still in the struggle forgetting that it wasn’t long ago you were the little people.

Frustrated with my body fighting me right now and not being able to do the things I know work for me and having to work on the things that don’t work for me until my body gets back on the program.

Yup just call me negative Nelly tonight.

On a positive note, I get to start running again this week (that will help get my head back in the right place) and I’m going to sign up for a fitness nutrition course to help myself get stronger in the area of nutrition MY WEEK SPOT CLEARLY!!!

some may be thinking “she needs to pull that stick out of her butt and really get real”

I’m going to blame the uno pizza and Blue moon beer I had to day. I should never blog when I’m feeling all puffy and stuffed like a pig. OY!

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